ya know sometimes i feel like such a minor character the one no one really cares for or pays attention to . the one that when you enter a room filled with friends no one really jumps up to say hi to or hug you. maybe a few but its not like ommgg heyyyyy. then when another friend or too walks in every one jumps up to greet them . like your just a minor person least important. yea people will say im cool im nice but what else is there. when they talk about someone else its all enthusiastic and feel they can go on and on. maybe im not interesting enough ? still not that important. i mean sometimes i still feel very invisible to this day .still havent been the one very much missed or enthused over i guess i dont have to but when its everyone else but me i begin to wonder just how important i am to people like they say i am. example i would say something to everyone and like always when i talk no one either listens or responds. then you take another person in the group they say it and its a bright idea . wtf ? and this happens alot in school to i say something or bring up an idea and for some reason people have hearing problems and yes i do speak up but people ignore… then someone else says it prolly after hearing me and bam people respond or laugh or think what they say it soo funny when i said it too . i guess im getting to the point where ima just say fuck it ima just sit back and see how this goes see how important i really am . im tired of being in the back round or a minor character ..i dont feel like im less of a person no more maybe thats why im fed up now not mad either just really wondering now
i wish it were as simple as taking a needle and thread to fix your crumbling heart . its hard to hear my best friend get hurt and mislead over and over only to get hurt some more .i can only hope that u will be okay and u will forget ..it will all fade in time i hope that your heart can rest for now . and be ready to love again .